My body is an empty shell

(MENAFN- Tree Fingers)

The bread we make at home feels like a piece of heaven,
A taste of it makes you understand what life is all about.

The rabbit stuffed animal from my childhood that sits in my room means absolutely nothing to me, it is a vessel of everything that I've lost.

Ashamed to call it a memory because memories haunts you or makes you melancholic
But I feel neither.

I let the sun soak my skin and eat my soul,
and for a second, I feel whole again.

Like God witnessed my existence and saw me worthy of a glimpse of him.

The water I wash myself with makes me feel more dirty,
The water is a parody of the person I never got to be.

The cigarettes I inhale into my lungs makes me feel closer to God.

The mere sight of my cat brings me agony remembering my old cat.

The men I encounter are a shadow of a past lover.

My teeth ache to be taken out, just like the meaning I try to engrave into things haunt what I can't be and see.

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